At peace.

I am someone who can never have a blank mind. Like, there's always something or the other going on inside that "thing" there. But today was bliss. I didn't even know I was capable of having a mind devoid of anything whatsoever. The best part was that I entirely did ..whatever I did in the course of the day. Get me? :\

I wasn't talking to someone and thinking what I'll do when I get home, I wasn't having a burger and wondering when someone will reply to my message, I wasn't looking out of the cab window and analyzing what happened the last time I spoke to him on the phone. When I was eating, I was just eating. When I was listening to music, that's all I was doing. 

It's a big deal for me and I loved the feeling so much, I'm falling in love with it. I want it to be my "default" state of mind. My wavering attention span doesn't allow me to live in the moment and I don't think even a moment should be spared. 

Also, in this state of mind, I find myself to be quite unresponsive which works well for me. I don't find myself reacting to every small thing. Yes, the truck came by and splashed muddy water on my jeans. So? Yes, that aunty in the train just couldn't stop screaming. So? These things were never "So?" for me. I had to react, I had to "show" them that they're pissing me off. 

But what's the point? Is it worth it? No. Not one bit so let it be will you? :)