How do u let go when all this time you've just conditioned yourself to 'control'?
Being calculated and controlled makes you feel safe, sure .. but that's all that's there to it. Then when you're finally settled in the whole idea..enters someone who's not even close to being that way. And that's when you realize how addictive that feeling is.
That's the thing - there are no rules and in our whole attempt to find rules and the dos and don'ts in every situation, we screw up what we have. And that's not worth it. That's not even half of what we thought we would be left with..
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And, hello! :)
It's been so bloody long.
More than a mere writer's block, there was just so much going on in my head ..I really couldn't find the time or the exact words to explain the situation.
Being calculated and controlled makes you feel safe, sure .. but that's all that's there to it. Then when you're finally settled in the whole idea..enters someone who's not even close to being that way. And that's when you realize how addictive that feeling is.
That's the thing - there are no rules and in our whole attempt to find rules and the dos and don'ts in every situation, we screw up what we have. And that's not worth it. That's not even half of what we thought we would be left with..
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And, hello! :)
It's been so bloody long.
More than a mere writer's block, there was just so much going on in my head ..I really couldn't find the time or the exact words to explain the situation.
I think ceding control is one of the most difficult things we'll ever do...but it's also one of the healthiest.
ReplyDeleteIt is the healthiest and so liberating.
DeleteThat "safe, sure" is just an illusion. In the end, you're going to be exactly as good or bad as the others. It's just better to let go and enjoy the ride.
ReplyDeletei read this on a fellows wall. room wall not fb wall.
ReplyDeletestop analyzing life. live it.
Dos n donts… rules n regulations… how we wish we could just go by how our heart feels… but…
ReplyDeleteSee you wanted to write a lot, but…
:D welcome back!
ReplyDeleteNice blog!
ReplyDeleteGlad I found yoU!
I'm glad you thought so! :D
DeleteThanks.