What goes?

So, I’m fussy.

And moody.
Also pretty stubborn.
I snap out during conversations, at times.
And yes, I don’t smile much.

But I don’t think I want to change.

And that’s scary, isn’t it?

Now, this is what I call a kaun-karega-mujhse-shaadi moment :P

NAHIIIIIIIIII.

Because I just had to.

I realized I like playing the agony aunt and giving advice to people. It makes me forget my issues if nothing else. No, not the sadist way. Lol.
But at present, I'm really happy. No guy, no problems. That's it. I cracked it :P

There are a few I'm-so-screwed-I-don't-know-what-I'm-going-to-do-after-third-year issues but well, that can wait I think. I shall sort them out soon. I better. There's hardly any time left. Just 2 months of college and then prelims and then boards and then what? OHMYGOD. No, they can't wait! Time's just flying away!

*dies of a panic attack*

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Whenever I don't have much to say, I get all quote-y! I'm a sucker for quotes, just by the way.

‘In a world where everyone struggles to survive whatever the cost, how could one judge those people who decide to die? No one can judge. Each person knows the extent of their own suffering, or the total absence of meaning in their lives’
- Veronika Decides to Die

Oh I missed you, HIMYM.

"It’s just everyday, I think I believe a little less and a little less and a little less. And that sucks" - Ted Mosby.

*sigh*

He's always on Facebook. LALALA.

Facebook is such a pain and I find it necessary to keep saying this from time to time. I wish I could just delete my account and live happily ever after but I need it for work related purposes and ARGHHH, that sucks!

I’m really old fashioned when it comes to such things. I fancy the life they used to have earlier, you know when there were such few modes of keeping in touch. Then something happened and came along technology and other such things which don’t let you forget people, which don’t allow you to conveniently tick people off your life because they’re always there somewhere hanging reminding you of their existence, either in your phone contacts or your Facebook contacts or your BBM contacts! Whaaaaat!

Oh and have you watched that Vodafone ad where that guy thinks he’s the coolest person ever and goes about singing on how he’s always on Facebook?

Day and night.

He's always on facebook.

I comment, share, blog.

                                              He's always on facebook.

Facebook. I'm always on facebook. 

Where else would I be.

Where else would you be? Seriously?
Try and get a life, maybe?

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Ya so it’s 4:30 in the morning and I was doing Theory of Profits, Risks and Uncertainty and I swear I don’t know how I landed here.

Why, oh why!

Why are some people so awesome?
Why am I always hungry?
Why are some people so sorted?
Why do some people have the perfect nose?
Why do I love sleeping so much?
Why can't it stop raining already?
Why am I always late?
Why can't Bombay have Metro?
Why do I love procrastinating?
Why am I so obsessed with my hair?
Why have I never had cute neighbours?
Why is Delhi so far?
Why is Ranbir Kapoor so hot?
Why is Tusshar Kapoor .. not so hot?

Okaaaay. I see CAKEEE. Bye!

I was just bored. Don't kill me

Powerful.

I just ended things with him. And she is anyway not really a part of my life anymore.

Now when I think of it, I see that there's not a single person in my life at the moment who I'm emotionally dependent on. So dependent that I could give them the power to mess with me. No one.
And that coming from me, is a huge thing.
I feel powerful and in total control. And is that awesome or what.

You know the best way to come over someone?
It's when you're "lucky" enough to witness the person change drastically, so much that you don't identify with him/her any longer. Yes, you'll have a gazillion questions but when you see them going unanswered, you'll eventually get tired and stop looking for answers. By the end of it, you'll just be exhausted and before you know it, you've left all of it behind you. 

After 1 month and 4 days.

"Tragedy makes for a great story but ultimately its hollow and cruel. 

Do yourself that favour. Let some light in. Even in your darkest hour."

Good one.

I read this in Filmfare. No, I'm not kidding.

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So yesterday you used to talk to this person every single day, without fail and today you need to think for at least an hour before calling her. And then when you finally do, you try your best to avoid those awkward silences and you ask the most weirdest questions just to fill in the gaps. After all that is done, you keep the phone and let out a sigh of relief. 

"Wasn't all that bad"

...but the crack still remains and it's going to be there for the rest of your lives. There's no denying that. 

What am I doing?!

What am I doing?!

I've asked myself this question a thousand times over already. You know the times when you exactly know what's going wrong but you don't have the courage to call it the quits or withdraw yourself because of the simple reason that you fear change. The times when you feel you rather stick to the same old thing and not take any action. Think about it, how many times will you make an attempt to 'try' and settle things. It's just plain tiring, isn't it?

Fairy tale beginnings never ever ever work out well. Fairy tale beginnings look best in books and that's where they should be. Period. Or maybe not even there because they're fucking misleading.

Okay so I'm going to rant a little.

All we do is fight. Over stupid things and no, it's not cute or funny, it's irritating because when I get miffed, I'm just told how I can't 'take jokes'. Take jokes? Are you fucking kidding me? Jokes?! How much does one want to joke? When do you joke and when are you serious? How the fuck am I supposed to know? I hate people who keep "joking" all the time. It's just self defense. To not show who you really are and to run away from serious matters. Things which need to be spoken about! He's such an overgrown kid and that's what he is. When we talk, he makes me feel 10 years younger than what I am and I feel like shit. I hate the way I feel in his presence and that's obviously not a really good sign right?

I know what I want and I know this is not that but I've always settled for something else thinking that the situation will change, the person will change. But no! It's a bloody vicious cycle and I hate getting stuck in it every single time. And you know who's to blame? It's me.

I'm losing it. I needed to write this out. I feel better now. If I could slap him and throw some eggs or something at him, I would have felt way better but anyway. This is okay. And okay is fine. 

Death of an SRK fan.

This is about the death of an SRK fan. When did this die hard SRK fan die? While watching Chamak Challo, that lousy lousy song from Ra One.

What is wrong with you Shah Rukh! Whattttt?

The same guy who would have that super cute half smile on while the DDLJ song played. The same guy who said “Hum ek baar jite hain, ek baar marte hain, shaadi bhi ek baar hoti hai, aur pyar ..ek hi baar hota hai.” (which was shit but anyway)The same guy who would stand with his arms wide apart in every freaking song and I would feel like running right into them. 

How can HE do something like Chamak Challo or Ra One for that matter! I’m sorry but I will judge. Apart from Kareena (who’s looking HOT), there’s nothing good about the song. 

Plus Shah Rukh, I was sticking on for a long time. Main Hoon Na came, I saw you flying in the air half the time, I didn’t say a thing. You were terrible in KANK and I kept quiet again. Dard-e-disco was absolutely unbearable but I let it be thinking it's just a phase. I’m sorry, I can’t put up with this anymore. I must leave you now.

With SRK, I leave behind so many childhood memories *sigh*

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Alas! Now, I must move over to greener pastures (read: Ranbir Kapoor)

That said, DID ANYONE CATCH THE PROMO OF ROCKSTAR?

*faints*

Of compromising.

I'm just so irritated today. I want to scream and tear out a pillow or something. I wonder if that will help too.

Considering the amount of "mistakes" I've made, I have this tendency to keep thinking that I'm going wrong somewhere always.What happens in these cases is that sometimes when it's not even your fault, you're convinced it is and you just end up compromising. And yes, that sucks.

I'm still wondering where I need to draw the line. Every time I draw the line, something happens and I feel I should be a bit more easy. I've done that so many times that I've reached a place where I just look back and laugh at such moments.

I'm fighting for something that isn't worth it and I'm dead sure about this but I still don't want to let go. Why is that? Come up with a decent answer and I shall give you a chocolate. Haha :D