Inkaar.

I watched Inkaar a few days back and was I impressed or what! What a lovely movie. It was about how life is all about shades of grey. There's no black or white. No one is perfect and nor are we expected to be.

The best part of the movie was its unbiased approach. The maker didnt take sides and even though we tend to believe that one of them is right and the other is wrong in the beginning (because that's how we are taught to look at things) as the movie progresses we realize that its all about perspective. There are different ways to look at situations. You might be right where you are but the other person isnt't wrong either. It makes you think if you've misintrepreted anyone's actions before or if your intentions were ever misinterpreted.

The silliest part about this is that we conveniently make our assumptions. We don't bother to "discuss" or "clarify". This is where our big fat ego comes into the picture. We think its better to keep those emotions to ourselves, supress them and move on, completely ignoring the fact that they might just overturn things in future.

Just imagine how different things would have been if you didn't let your ego take over. How many friendships would you have saved. How many relationships would not have ended the way they did. So many, in my case, when I think about it.

The movie is a must watch. Ending the post with a few beautiful lines from the theme song -
"Dil pe jane kaha, ghav koinlaga, lafzon ne diye lafzo  ko daga.
Khamoshiyan awaz hain, lafzon mein bas inkar hain.."

Oh sweet brother of mine!

Families are such a twisted concept, no? We don’t choose them, we’re given them and we just need to accept them. And as we grow up, we start seeing every family member as an individual. Most of the times we love but sometimes we aren't able to love. And that kills you because in your mind all that’s going on is - they’re family!

Every family has issues. If you’re living together, that’s bound to happen but I guess we need to make the best of it and take it in our stride. There’s always a reason for the ever protective mother, the drama queen of a grandmother, the intruding grandfather, the bratty younger sister or the really strict father. They make you and the path you choose to take is in your hands. You can either go the “wrong” way and resort to door banging every time something happens or you can choose to see the bright side and learn how NOT to be.

My brother’s 17 now and I remember how I used to panic about never being able to get through to him because all we used to do was fight. Fight for every little thing. “What a child!", I used to think to myself and get mad at him and now things are so different. I forgot that at that time, he WAS a child and now he’s growing up and as he’s growing up, we’re talking, we’re joking around, we’re having fun along with the screaming and shouting. I was never the girl who had an awesome relationship with her brother but now even though it’s not awesome, we’re getting there.

He’s not a child anymore and I should stop treating him like one. What he feels, matters ..what he has to say, needs to be heard. And I want to be there for him not because he’s my brother but because I like the way he is. One thing's for sure, he’s at the peak of his "teenager phase" and I can’t deal with teenagers. Period.

I just hope someday we’ll look back and laugh at all this and be there for each other whenever need be.

And hello again!

Hola! I was just staring into space today and I realized how much I enjoyed writing once upon a time. I stopped and I don't know why. Today, I feel like it again and I'm done giving myself reasons.

So, there will be times when I'm going to whining, serious, random, silly and a lot other things but I want to be able to jot it all down. If I could, I would totally document every thought that crosses my mind because none of it deserves to be forgotten. And also, everything can't be said on Twitter, for some things you need ze blog ;)

Writing used to make me ponder, it used to give me clarity about so many things. I remember a few conversations with certain people that would make me immediately open blogger and write it all out. Now, somehow all of that has decreased.

In fact recently when I caught up with an old friend, talking about stuff I could only talk to her about made me so happy. I don't know about others but I need such people in my life -for the sake of my sanity in this crazy world.

Also, I'm going to have to stop saying "there's no time" which practically was my mantra in the last 6 months. I've come to realize that if you want to find the time, you will.

That's all for the first post of 2013 :)