Thursday, February 23, 2012

Perfectly imperfect or Imperfectly perfect?

He sends you flowers and chocolates and cards. He tells you he loves you and shows you that he cares. He makes it a point to see if you're alright after a horrible day. He stays on the phone for hours together when you're travelling back home alone. He does all that he can to make you happy because he says seeing you happy, makes him happy and you just realize how you've never met someone who cares so much.

In spite of all that, you feel something's missing but you tend to overlook that and tell yourself that he's just so 'nice' and you better start falling for him or he's done so much for you, that you can't afford to break his heart. But this feeling doesn't go and you don't know if it ever will.

You've just been blinded by his overly caring nature which often misleads you, making you believe you're on the same page but deep inside, you know you're not. You wonder what's holding you back because everything's just so freaking perfect. Maybe this is the closest you can ever get to having things like this but when you look at the way you feel, you realize that there's more to just having things perfect. Something you can't give a name to at the moment, something that goes beyond all this.

And if you feel that you'll just quietly "make" yourself feel the way he wants you to and no one will ever get to now, you're wrong. You're wrong because such arrangements don't work.
They don't for me at least. 

19 comments:

  1. people, are like locks. locks with many keys that can open them. but the lock, will open to only one key. if u get what i mean,

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  2. Couldn't help but agree...
    As long as the illusion of happiness is satisfied, one tends to go along with it. "Why rock the boat, eh?" as some might say !!
    But you know better. Nothing can substitute love, unfortunately...

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    1. Yes, nothing can. But that's not the case for everyone. There are a few who work well with 'arrangements'. To each his own..

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  3. Could relate to this PERFECTLY. The illusion of happiness, the reluctance to rock the boat, as Ankur says. And you keep telling yourself that what if this is as good as it gets, and you should be grateful for someone who loves you so much, but there is no escaping the fact that there is still something missing. Sigh.

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    1. Yes. How much ever you try to, you keep getting reminded of the fact that by going on with it, you're not only wronging him but you're also wronging yourself.

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  4. was that sarcasm or does it really? :/

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    1. It does.
      What made you think I was sarcastic :|

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  5. Trust me it never works, Never!!!! And the longer u stay with him/her, the more u feel guilty for not loving him/her back the way he loves you.....

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    1. Yeah, I guess. Guilt and all that ..

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  6. the fact that as much as i hate it, i barely know you. :)

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  7. life is like a box of chocolates . . . you never know what you're gonna get.

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  8. love your blog. i'm following The 1634th Random Blog. and your twitter account!

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  9. And, you keep on telling yourself how he is the nice guy, who's not going to hurt you like the others. He's the safe one. But, no matter how much you try. you never quite feel the same. And, that sucks.

    I can so relate.

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  10. Been there. Thankfully found someone else before I gave myself up for slaughter. New boy broke my heart too. Well, atleast I got my heart broken than feeling like shit all the time.

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