Multitude of emotions.

There’s no better feeling than the feeling you get when you’ve conquered anger. When something major happens, the emotions one is likely to go through ranges from hurt to anger to indifference.

When you’re hurt, you find reasons to get angry because you hate feeling vulnerable and let down. Then after all the reasons you give yourself, you finally stop feeling hurt, your ego speaks up and you are pushed into the anger zone. This is a horrible place to be. You rot here and more than anyone else, you cause yourself the most pain.

 Anger consumes you. It doesn’t allow you to think clearly. However rational you are as a person, this is the time when everything goes out of the window. Even though anger is short lived, it takes a considerably long time for you to put it aside and move on because here’s where your big bad ego is at play. Every day seems difficult, every moment feels like a struggle. The transition from anger to indifference has to be the worst and the most difficult one but it happens.

It’s all about that one moment when something hits you and you realize how clouded your thoughts were all this while. Finally, you start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. There’s hope and you start making your move towards it. And then, the time you release anger, that’s the beautiful bit. You’re finally done. You feel lighter, less burdened and normal. And normalcy is great because that’s what you craved all this while. This is when you’ve finally let go and become indifferent. You’ve walked away from your past, all the happenings, all the doings, the pain, anger, resentment, everything. You’ve put everything behind you and you are now ready to bounce back. You’re out of that “phase” and nothing can be better than that.

I think I got there just now. It took me a month but it happened.

:)